Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Material Girl

There are people in this world who are brand crazy, label crazy and I don't mean just one label. They have this craze that only if they wear branded stuff will they be hip. No that aint true. I like Coach, I like Banana Republic, I like J.Crew and I like Mercedez....but it's not like ooooooh, I gotta have an Armani jacket and guess jeans and Chanel glasses only then will I be cool......

A few key points to remember:
1. We came empty handed and we shall depart empty handed. In fact, at the time of death, we leave behind all worldly/materialistic possesions behind. Our souls are truly liberated. Whether or not we attain Nirvana or a better next life will be determined by our Karma....

2. Speaking of Karma, I strongly feel that today if God has given us certain benefits over other fellow human beings, we must first of all totally appreciate how much it means because we cannot even fathom how life would be in the absence of all the privileges we have. This does not just mean Armani and Guess, but also two eyes, hands, legs, family, education, friends, roof to live under, food to eat... Things could be worse.
3. We can and must show our appreciation for these privileges by doing what we came here for, helping make this a better place, giving a little to someone who deserves/needs/lacks it is not going to affect us adversely. Not only by money, but by contributing via our minds, bodies, thoughts, actions we largely impact our world.
4. I, for one am fortunate to be educated in moral values by my family, friends, teachers, etc...I must give back the good I got from this world.
5. If the 4 points above did not convince you, then at least to minimize ur -ve Karma and enhance ur +ve Karma, you must help out....it doesn't matter whether it benefits you or not, it doesn't matter if you know the person or not, it doesn't matter.... nothing should stop you from doing what you gotta do, nothing should stop you from doing a good deed...it could be something like planting in ur backyard, smiling at a passerby, calling someone and letting them know that you care....
6. When you say you love someone, love them w/o conditions, give that one person your everything, (s)he should matter the most to you.....don't hesitate to show them you care, don't hesitate to show them how much you love them. Go that extra mile for someone you love.

On that note, I shall sign out.....with a bright sunshiney smile :)

Peace,

-Sunshine

PS: I aint no materialistic girl...but yeah I totally melt when it comes to Mercedez ;-)

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

U2-Stuck in a moment....

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trynna' find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
'Cause tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They just left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

You are such a fool
To worry like you do.. Oh
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Unwritten

It was one stormy night, San Francisco had never seen such dark clouds before, the clouds roared in agony, the lightening showed it's furor by striking again and again. The trees swayed in fear. The wind could not dare to stand up to the mighty clouds, it made it's way for safer ground by fleeting in the most expeditious way one could have ever witnessed.

People were running for cover, kids were looking up at the sky in discombobulation, their eyes wide open and an excitement in their eyes. cars were driving faster. There was chaos everywhere. It grew darker as the storm continued to brew.

With passing moments, it only grew stronger, looming large over the city, threatening the people to grab shelter.


But, alas!!! the angry and frustrated people could not see her wounds, could not feel her pain....now, the time had come, she had to let it out. She had suffered, endured it all. She hadn't let a tear out. Tonight she voiced her pain, her agony......

In moments that followed, there was calm everywhere, the wind stood still as if fearing to tresspass the dreaded territory, no sound, it was still dark all around, only heart beats could be heard, anxious heart beats, some sighing relief, some wondering what's next to come...

The moment of silence was followed with her tears drenching the earth, people stood sodden not wanting to move anymore, not wanting to run for cover, as if sudden realization had dawned upon them, as if making them want to share her pain, feeling remorseful a little, embarrased a little. She had let it out, let it all out, it seemed that all the heaviness from her heart had been lifted.

After a trice, the rain had sobered down and life on earth resumed a state of normalcy. Little girls danced in the rains like little fairies performing ballet on the gentle petals covered with the pearls of the morning dew. Little boys put their hands out as if to feel her tears and give her a touch of innocent comfort.

There were smiles all around, the chirping birds melodiously added to the pitter patter of the rain drops, and once again.....

Sun rays gradually broke through the clouds enhancing the silver lining of the majestic clouds which now were ready to move on...soon there was sunshine all around!

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Poetry for People.....

Today, a friend and I were discussing some stuff about Poetry since we both pen down our thoughts in a poetic form once in a while.....He made a rather interesting comment on how poetry is "crap" if it doesn't have something for everyone....if it doesn't apply to everyone in general...

and then he told me about a poem he had written in the 11th grade for a gal he liked a lot... :), it was a very nice poem....however soon after he recited the poem to me, he said it was "personal crap".....this is when I thought more on his previous statement of poetry catering to the masses....

and then I told him, "this poem was written with one specific person in mind and it was written solely for this person"... you just shared it with me....at some level or the other, I do connect with the poetry, it maybe the matter, the writing style or just the flow of thoughts....and then he is like.... you know what you're right.....

what do you think?????

speaking of which, boy oh boy!!!! it's been quite a while that I have written some rhyming lines ;-) hahahaahaha....well, poetry my friend is much more than that.....

so, on this note, I shall end my post here and get those poetic cells to work ;-)

Have a happy Tuesday....Friday is only two days away....

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Stuck in a moment....

Just sitting in the lab, headphones plugged in and carrying on with my work....these days, its not been as easy as its been in the past to focus.....

speaking of focus, I have this friend, who during my study leave (preparatory leave before exams) when we all used to meet in the school library to study would tell me: "Kinju focus!!!!" hahahahaha!!!! well not really going anywhere with it, but once in a while, the thought comes to my mind when I realize that I am distracted and need to get back on track...

so, not digressing anymore :), I shall continue with my story and drive home the point for which there could be no better title to this blog article....

I listen to a lot of U2 music and today, I randomly selected one U2 album in my iPod and so far all the songs are just so amazing, especially on a day like today....Bono's voice just does it! for me at least.....

I had gone for his concert in 2005 ...it was one helluva concert...I absolutely loved it....Edge, the guitarist... also super rocks!!!! wooohooo!!!!!!

Song of the day.....

Stuck in a Moment, from the album - All that you can't leave behind.... enjoy the lyrics and try to listen to the song if you get your hands on it :)

I'm not afraidOf anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trynna' findA decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
'Cause tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of itI will not forsake

The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They just left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

You are such a fool
To worry like you do..
OhI know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Beautiful Soul.....

Beautiful Soul, - by Jesse McCartney
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I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forwardI'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah

YaY!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok, I know I've blogged a lot today.....but well...what can I do... :)

well, after a few pensive/thought provoking blogs...here's a very light one.......my co-worker is generally been a lil cranky ever since he's got back from his 4 week long vacation....but he is a nice guy and we both often chit-chat a lil here and there while working.....

this afternoon, while working in the lab, I am trying hard to concentrate w/o my iPod and I hear him literally jump out of his seat and exclaim "Holy crap!!!!".....I'm like dude, what happened? Thinking he may have unearthed a world collapsing problem with our system....I was super curious to find out what had happened.......and he tells me....
.....hold your horses....... here it comes.............................
he tells me...... They are showing NHL (hockey) on the internet......he was overwhelmed with joy, ecstatic, just went crazy for a couple of minutes there....and then rushed to his cube to catch the game..............

well, all of a sudden, my worries seem to have gone away and I feel happy for him.....so yay!!!!! :)

his life is made I tell you.....

it's good to see him smile/grin from ear to ear.....

ok, now back to some serious work :)

When it rains it pours....

....on me at least.... one thing that really really makes me forget my pain and problems temporarily and helps me clear my mind to think rationally is MUSIC....and I do not have a CD player in my car. I solely rely on my iPod...and this friggin iPod of mine has been giving me battery problems since sometime now... recently after getting tech support in order to fix my problem, I had to reset my iPod to factory settings and that means getting rid of my entire playlist. That in itself was big pain in the a$$ and to top it all, that DID NOT fix my problem :(

Have to call support again..... I am going crazy w/o my iPod.....it's like the high one would get from smoking or daily morning coffee.... take away the cigarette from a smoker, deprive one from his daily dose of caffeine...and all hell breaks lose....now you getting my point..... :)

So, if you cross my path and I lash out on you... I'm tellin ya....it's the iPod.....that's the culprit....blame it on the iPod :(

Monday, May 01, 2006

The theory of Karma: What goes around comes around.....

I'm sure we all have heard this phrase so many times...at times, we say this to others and at times others remind us of this phrase.....but who are we to judge as to what a person is going through is something (s)he deserves is a reward/punishment for what (s)he did in the past....

But guess what this is life, there are all kinds of people....and we just gotta learn to take it in our stride.....and that is what I want emphasize here...I took it in my stride, I did not let myself get adversely affected by what was told to me.....I could have reacted out of my emotions at that time and given a fitting reply just to drive home the point...but I chose not to...and I feel very good that I didn't do so then.....

I know, I am only human and am bound like other humans to the material world which includes all tangible and non-tangible attributes....and these are the elements that make me weak....and like all human beings, I too have to give back what I get and get back what I give .......but just like how they say, that every mistake is only a step closer to success, and that every step taken whether it is right or wrong is a step taken ahead because we learn from it and grow....

then why say what goes around comes around....

oh well....but as I said above... this is life :)

Here's drinkin up to LIFE!!!!!! :)

The Love Connection

Isn't it amazing, how a mother knows everything her child is going through....I think that birth of a child is by far God's best creation so far...

At the time of birth, the umbilical cord is cut, but the connection between a mother and her child can never be cut. It is just amazing how a mother just senses every emotion, highs and lows that her child goes through without even being told about it...

Last night I was talking to my mom and was a little depressed. However, when talking to her on the phone I kept my sunny side up and spoke in a cheerful voice....She is in India and I am currently in the US. The last time I saw her was in December 2004. We speak on the phone very often and try to fill the physical absence in the process.

Anyway, so yesterday she didn't say anything, we chit-chatted and then I hung up. Later about an hour later, she called me up and she tells me: "Sweetheart, tell me what's on your mind. I feel as if you want to tell me something"... not wanting to upset her, I stood my ground and told her that I was fine and was in bed almost falling to sleep. So she let it be at that and hung up.

This morning she calls me again and tells me: "honey, I am your mother, you cannot hide your feelings from me" and then I just burst into tears.....at the end of the conversation, we both just felt so relieved.

Maybe a man can never experience this amazing bond, maybe a son and a mother can never connect as closely as a daughter and mother do....

It's like mothers have the sixth sense all the time when it comes to their kids....not only in humans, but even in animals and birds and all living organisms....

Mom, if you're reading this, I want to tell you that I love you a lot........and miss you...wish I could spend more time with you....

God bless all mothers....

Friday, April 14, 2006

::Food Chain::

Yesterday, a friend of mine and I were discussing a few certain things about vegetarianism, veganism, etc... somewhere during our discussion came about the topic of how non-vegetarainism was needed to sustain the eco-system/food-chain, obviously brought up by my friend to in his defense. So, I brought to light my idea of how the food chain was a concept developed by humans themselves to suit their needs. To my surprise, my friends partially agreed with me. anyway, so we continued our ramblings on veg vs non-veg..it wasn't a very heated debate since he is planning on giving up everything but fish....his reasons are partially related to cruelty to animals (which is good enough reason for me)...

This brought to my mind another question, is this way of life, the world, the materialism, everything tangible, nothing but a facade???? Are we in delirium? There are celebrities who protest against fur but wear leather, promote vegetarianism/veganism for one or more reasons but then they indulge in practices that would very much contradict their very own principles. I have done it, you have done it, we all have done it at some point or the other, it's only a matter of time before we realize this and take a step towards changing that...

Yeah, I know...I have diverted my discussion from food chain to the sundries....but well :) it is related...such is life whether we like it or not...

Are we hypocrites? Do we think different and act different? Do we at all times, try to please some one or the other but ourselves?
One line that has stuck with me from the Tobey Maguire movie - Spiderman - "With great power comes great responsibility"...

continuing on that note, I feel that we humans have immense power and control in our hands and thus we should not use it to manipulate this so-called "eco-system"????

By doing all this, where are we headed?????
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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Vagaries of the Wandering Heart....

5 years old, all I can remember are some happy times, with the birth of baby brother, I wanted to hold him, play with the 11Lb bundly of joy....

10 years old, school and play, all in a day's work. No worries, eat sleep and enjoy life....

16 years old, graduated from high school, had to make the first important decision of my life, where was I headed, what did I want to do...and I thought that was biggest and most confusing decision of my life...Anyway, I went with my heart and chose to take up Science, not many girls coming from my background, my family chose.... and I have my mother to thank for supporting me! :) and encouraging me...

21 years old, graduated from undergrad and yet once again, I was the crossroads of my life where I had to make yet another "IMPORTANT" decision...I did not let Destiny dictate my life, but rather chose to write my own destiny...I wanted to spread my wings and soar higher and higher....so there I was, all my bags packed and waiting to a board a plane to Los Angeles, USA...no not to Hollywood... :), but to a very prestigious University to pursue my Masters Degree in Engineering....

This is where my life made some new, unexpected turns....Whoever coined the phrase "Getting wiser with age" must have lost it.... It should actually be: "Getting wiser with age and facing a new wisdom test ever friggin single day"...While I had great experiences in my life, happy ones, sad ones, tough ones, funny ones...it taught me a lot, made me stronger, I grew emotionally and yes... I realized that the phrase I just quoted above was justified in it's original form :) My life was enrichened with all the experiences...

Today, after 5 whole years, I am here, fitting the most beautiful part of my journey so far in the most condensed form ever....so many beautiful people I've met, so many memories to cherish, so many places seen, so many things learnt.....yet my desire to explore more, learn more is far from quenched!!!

Each day brings with it a new light, a new story on it's lips...waiting to unfold and become an integral part of my life and memories to be etched on my heart and mind.

As I travel in search of the significance of my existence, the role I am here to play, in search of the horizon, my destination, in quest of the eternal truth, my experiences with truth and life is what I have to share and leave behind....
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Vagaries of the Wandering Heart. -Sunshine!

My heart is a vagabond, it cannot settle, it is restless to seek more,
The truth is what it seeks, the truth is what it craves, the truth is it's core.
I want to spread my wings and soar high, soar high into the sky,
New heights, I desire to reach, New skies I desire to fly.
My mind is a vagabond, it cannot settle, a cause it needs to champion
With the heart, it seeks love. With the soul it seeks a companion.
Together with love and aspiratons, I have begun this journey,
Set out to seek the truth, set out to seek eternity.
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

::Reflections::


As I sit by the river side, listening to the murmuring of the gentle stream as it kisses the pebbles on it's way, I notice a squirrel quenching it's thirst by the sweet water of the stream. I then noticed my own reflection in the water. At first, I could barely see it with the running stream. All I could notice were the pebbles. But as I continued to look for it, I did find it....I saw my reflection in the water, clear and untouched. I smiled and thought to myself….just catching my reflection in the water made me feel nice, even though I look at myself in the mirror everyday.

What was I seeing in the two reflections that evoked this reaction? What was the difference? The difference being that in the stream I could just look at myself and think about nothing, worry about nothing, look at the person who I really am…Just be one with myself….

Everyday we look in the mirror and strive to be what we think we need to be, what others want us to be. Why do we wear a mask and yet not see it? We need to see our true reflections, we need to be able to connect to our soul deep within and become one….